Inside-out

Do I really mean what I say?

Most of the time, yes, perhaps.
For the better.

Covering up is somewhat I'm known for
People occasionally tend to be okay, or dislike the way I portray things,
But I'm doing that for your good.
Seriously.

You say I hide many things,
You do too. We all do.
Not because I dislike you, I just don't want to reflect a cut in our maze.
Many things I have wanted to say, have always been sealed,
for now not being the right time and situation to say,
maybe I need to consider letting them go down the drain?
Tell me, what should I do?

Finding someone with a mutual understanding and respect is difficult,
So does the letting go process as well, being more difficult.

So I suppose,
Before it's too late, when the train departs the station,
To let go.

I feel something is still pulling me back,
What is it?
Why?

I don't know.